shitpost
2 incoveniences away from relapsing and im not kidding (sorry melly and mila)
ok so i deleted myfitnesspal and stopped weighing myself so that kinda improves my eating habits but not really cuz i got used to eating less so now idek if im eating normally or not AND I CANT EVEN TRACK MY PROTIEN UGHHHHHHHHH
i dont wanna move to texas bro trump is the root of all evil
feeling like that one scene in the anti-hero mv where taylor stepped on a scale and it said fat and other taylor looked at it then at her the shook her head
idk if the girl i have on is straight or gay but she knows i exist we have mutual friends and i literally have no idea what to do from here somebody help me
i logged out of my tiktok account for the week and switched to a diff one for my mental health but i logged back in for the weekend and i feel like that defeats the purpose
breatheeee outtttt so i can breathe you innnnnn
this is very performative but i lvoe deftones guys idk why people get called posers for liking them theyre sooo peaknessss
im thking about startinf cheer and geting diagnores for depression and adhd and getting posters for my room and deleting social media sorry that was really unorganized but idrc cuz hopefuly nobodies gonna read this thats also why this page is a whole different aesthetic from the others cuz nobodes gonna see this so why dhould i give a shit oh my english teacher would hate this
i think im gonna keep writing until everythings off my mind wtf thast what this is for ofc im gonna keep writing bro who am i vene talking to
so today i went to get monste with my mom at save ons and like on the way there she was like yelling at my and i literally dnt know what istg my whole family is bipolar including meeeeeeeeeeeeee ugh and i wanna work out more and have body tea and studff t im not eating nough so i literally have made no progress in the gym from like june when i started fmlfmlfmlfmlfmlfml somebody needs to give me grippy socks bro
somebody tell me how to manage my anger because i literally cant anymore and im not even joking in the slightest everything sets me off now and ive been listening to louder sceamy music and that helps but it doesngt help enough im thking about squeezing ice cubes but honestly what is my life im like 50 percent sure that i have hormonal imbalances but also its gotta be th people that im surrounded with cuz why are you completely ignoring my text messages and sending a tiktok instead bro what the fuck is wrong with you do you know how a conversatuon or a friendship works i hate most of my friends they ignore me and im always left out and theyre so rude to me when ive been nothing but kind to them like whyre u being rude to me i literally just asked you if we had to do race format and why are you saying you hope i have a heart attack just becaue i said i didnt like a flavour of monster bro wtf is wrong with you mind you these are my closest friends but even people that i dont know are whispering to their friends and pointing at me at lunch like bro what did i ever d to you i dont even know yourlast name can they honestly just leave me alone and when i check up on them cuz they seem down they literally bully me for it?? what the fuck?? can i not see if youre fucking suicidal and check up on you and be a nice person?? and then they ask me if im okay in a sarcastic tone?? britch get the fuck out my face youll see if im okay when you read my suicide notes addressed to you and the rest of the school who pointed and whispered about me you stupid ass fucking bitch
idk what to do anymore im so hopeless i need a therapist and a fucking gun
debating going to my school counsellor but like guys idk idk idk idk idk idk